I try.... Really hard.
I try hard to be positive all the time. Even when everything around me is falling apart.
I try hard to trust that life has a plan for me. To trust that people around me are sincere. To trust that maybe someone could love me as much as I love them. Even if I feel like I have nothing to offer but my love.
I try hard to believe people care. Even if they don't always show it. Even if they don't make time for me.
I try hard to be the person you want to love. Even though I know I will probably never be that person.
I try hard to make you proud. Even if you never stop to notice what I'm doing or see it for what it is.
I try hard to make my life better. Even if I always end up taking one step forward and get thrown three steps back.
I try hard to hold myself together. Even as the tears tear down my walls and drown me from the inside out.
Forever Frost
Must we?
Welcome... To my weird blog.
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
Monday, July 1, 2013
Starting Over
So I never keep up with this whole blogging thing. But I use facebook as a sort of diary so I figured I might as well give this a fresh try. Where to begin....
My name is Dezi, I have a soon-to-be 3 year old son named Cameron. I suppose his antics will take up a healthy chunk of this blog. The other chunk will be taken up with my stupid emotions and things that happen to me or things that I see that I find funny. And probably for some rants. And just my life in general.
Ah. I know where I'll begin.
As I sort of skipped out of the door after work today the sky was really clear, the warm summer air embraced me, and I looked up and saw this airplane not far above me. The sky was so clear and it was so low that I could see the lights and little details of the plane. I thought I was gonna run into one of the new vehicles by staring into the sky in awe at this airplane. I couldn't help but wonder where it was going and who was on it. I felt this complete feeling of nostalgia. Along with this wonder of what the future could hold and where I might one day go. And I know I can't wait til I one day get to fly somewhere.
My name is Dezi, I have a soon-to-be 3 year old son named Cameron. I suppose his antics will take up a healthy chunk of this blog. The other chunk will be taken up with my stupid emotions and things that happen to me or things that I see that I find funny. And probably for some rants. And just my life in general.
Ah. I know where I'll begin.
As I sort of skipped out of the door after work today the sky was really clear, the warm summer air embraced me, and I looked up and saw this airplane not far above me. The sky was so clear and it was so low that I could see the lights and little details of the plane. I thought I was gonna run into one of the new vehicles by staring into the sky in awe at this airplane. I couldn't help but wonder where it was going and who was on it. I felt this complete feeling of nostalgia. Along with this wonder of what the future could hold and where I might one day go. And I know I can't wait til I one day get to fly somewhere.
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